F*** MY LIFE!!! Just when I think I have even a hope at happiness, it vanishes!!! Lucy's (my ex-girlfriends) parents are such f***ing power freaks!!! We loved each other, but nooo. They just can't stand to see someone get close to their precious little baby!!! Well f*** this!!! I don't need this!!! I might as well just kill myself (metaphorically)!!! Become a completely new person. Maybe have an alter ego, be a schizophrenic,  have a drinking problem and wear glasses. Sigh... I can't hide from it... if there really is a God, he f***ing hates my guts.